Back again..

Back in Windhoek again. No proper grammer again, I'm tired..but i want to get this blog out. Alot has happened in the last 2 weeks...alot. Man, I can't explain how intriging africa is. Namibia especially. I've been doing alot of construction and infrastructure work here and it is just insane to note how new of a country this is. I suppose that the people here have wanted to make ths an independant country for some time now, but to hear the stories from former soldiers here is incredible. Just the depth of how personal their country is to them is completly foreign to me. I love my country as well, even through all of the mistakes and miscalculations we make as a people I love it but I will never know how it feels to fight a battle in a field that later becomes a town you live in. I will never know how it feels to stand and cry when the national anthem is sung...I have seen these things and it is absolutly incredible.

So I'm here now trying to download my thoughts from the first half of this job. It's going to take a while. I think I need to have some more dialog with people before I am able to talk about what I have seen and experienced. The absolute poverty and hopelesness of the people that I have worked with is something that I cannot fathom. I have tried to understand why a pair of shoes would be so important to someone and why they would cry over recieving clothing. I just don't understand it.

But, I've decided that I want to continue to do work here. As much as possible and as often as possible. Not that I am some american knight in shining armor here to save the people from themselves. Not that at all. I just want to help, with my own hands, in the most relevant and sustainable way possible. Thats all I want to do.

The U.S. ambassador was at the closing ceremony on friday and I was completly surprised and honored that she brought me a gift. It was a packet of information regarding the Foreign Service test that she thought I might find useful. I was blown away. To think that some one is such a position of power and authority would remember a conversation and bring me information that I had not even aked for was incredible.

I'm going to stop this entry here and process my thoughts a bit more. I still have much to write about my time in Namibia and I will definatly return to it. I have an afternoon flight to South Africa tommorrow for some more work and I am excited and ready for the new challanges that I will get there.

This trip is really just a whole lot of "Wow". More on that later...